losing isn't nice!!

losing a fren,
isn't something pleasant.
nobody can avoid being sad.
u may not shed a single tear,
but deep in ur heart,
u will feel the pain.
it's juz human being's nature..

losing a fren,
particularly a person with good personalities,
is indeed a great loss.
u may not be able to accept the fact,
but wat has happened cannot be changed.
history remains history.

losing a fren,
who is so kind,
who is so helpful,
who is so cheerful,
who is so encouraging.
who is so talented in dancing,
who is so active in everything,
is definitely a very sad thing.

my personal experience hav left a big impact on me. i realised, we shud appreciate all our frens and family when they're stil available. anything can happen anytime. life is unpredictable no matter how great how smart a person is. merciless sickness can attack anyone any day no matter how hard u try to live a healthy life.

to my dear fren, from today onwards, we'll be living in two different world. may u rest in peace and be happy in the new world u're in. u will always be in our hearts.. ur deeds will nvr be forgotten..

shock!!

.......... i stunned when i received the sms. i din know how to react, i could nt believe wat i read although i knew it was the truth. even double checked with the person who sent me the sms whether im reading the right thing or not. nothing can change the pass.

a cheerful, helpful, skillful person had such an unexpected ending of life. although we weren't very close, from the conversations we had, i hav always admired the way u encouraged ppl bside u, ur confidence towards life. i am truly saddened by this whole thing. ur absence is a great loss to every1. but again i would say, nothing can change the pass.

i'll try to be strong while facing this piece of news and may u rest in peace..

friday..

today is a friday juz like other fridays.. woke up 6 in the morning to prepare for college.. 645, i left my hse n head towards taman jaya lrt.. taking public transport in the morning isnt wat i like to do.. sittin the lrt n bus all alone is juz so boring and i really hate squeezing with those strangers:(

but after today, i think takin the lrt to skul haz its benefits too hehe.. curious?? wanna guess why?? after takin the escalator up to the platform to wait for the lrt, i saw sum1 very familiar.. lookin twice, makin sure i hadn't see wrongly, i saw shirley.. hohoho... she is studyin at tarc n im studyin at help academy. it was such a coincidence!!! i feel so happy to meet my fellow classmates again. although im nt so close to all of u, i actually do miss all of u!!

i actually feel quite bad for missing those s6 events but i din do it on purpose.. i was juz too busy durin december.. meeting shirley at the lrt, reminds me of those high skul days.. chit chatting with frens in claz, sleepin n eating in claz is juz so fun..

now, in help, there's onli 13 ppl in my claz. 10 boys 3 gals.. we're getting along quite well but there's a big diff compare to high skul.. laz time, the amount of gals n boys are bout the same.. i miss gals in my claz now hahahaha.. and now, my claz is so small dat i dun even have chance to not pay attention or sleep.. sumtimes when im super tired, i cant juz sleep.. i had to tahan till those lecturers leave n it's very torturous.. even chit chattin durin claz is super hard..watever we chat about can be heard by our lecturers..

one thing gud is, lecturers are better than those high skul teachers.. if they suck, i think ill die haha.. but then, havin none of my ex classmates in my claz is makin me miss u guys so much!! not even a single person from chs is in my claz now so sad... im really lookin forward to meet up with u guys.. miss all of u badly.. evelyn n siew cen is now thousands of miles away from me.. hope dat 1 day we will still be able to meet up.. memories of high skul moments will nvr fade..

i managed to get one week off for cny hols hooray!! actually there's still 2 classes on next week but since those lecturers say that it's okie nt to go for claz, im not goin.. ponteng once in a while wont hurt i guess.. cny here i come.. so many things happened juz in one day....

cny holidays!!!

HELP a levels has onli 2 days off for cny.. i wonder why they onli giv us two days off.. we r in msia, most of us are chinese, why shud they deprive us from celebrating n havin fun durin chinese new year. i was so pissed n sad when i heard about this news. most of my frens are havin a 10 days break, i felt jealous for the first time xD.

few days later, shea shin who was also takin the same course told me his claz managed to get 1 week off for cny. when i heard bout it, i was so excited. can u believe it, gettin extra hols. immediately i asked him how they got 'awarded' with those hols.. after learning the secret skill, i suggested my clazmates to do so. u know the malay peribahasa "bagai aur dengan tebing"?? with their cooperation, i now hav 4 days of cny break, excluding the weekend b4 cny. hooray!!!

but im still unsatisfied.. guess why?? i hav a statistic 1 claz on friday. i dun mind goin for it but the prob is, it's onli an hour of claz. for me to go to college, it takes me an hour or so. means i nid to travel a total of two hours for dat freakin 1 hour claz. time is so precious n i dun wanna waste time argghhh.. why cant u juz postpone ur claz? it isn't dat hard rite?? haiz..

tomorrow i will be havin dis mr. XXX's claz. i really hope dat mrXXX will change his mind n giv me hols!!! may my wish be granted. looking forward for the long break.. long hours of college is tiring me..

dat's all im gonna blog about today.. ciaoz..

written by,
the girl who nids rest:)

everything!!

dis week is my 3rd week of college life. i settled with my subject combination without makin any changes.. really hope that i would not regret... sad to say, zhini n me are now in different claz as she decided to take up bio instead of further maths. we are seperated!! i hope we both will get used to it..

can anyone guess where am i now?? im in the computer lab of help academy!! one advantage in college compared to secondary is, i can actually use a comp at college.. isnt that great?? having a 2 hours break before my mechanics 1 claz begins.. mechanics 1 is one subject closely related to physics but is a unit in maths. hmm.. i feel it's kinda tough, nt like the physics we used to learn durin secondary.. juz praying hard that i will be able to catch up and wont feel so lost during mechanic 1 claz.

chinese new year is juz round the corner. looking forward for the cny holidays.. long hours in college is making me feel very exhausted. im a human, i nid sleep n rest!!! luckily i still hav free time to use the comp... life isn't always a bed of roses so im nt gonna complain bout my life.. i believe that no matter wat we do, we shud learn to enjoy it.. if not, we will suffer in life n grow old faster.. im gonna stay young foreever=>

hoping to have a gud rest n enjoyable cny break.. hope my lecturers are willing to take leave so that i can hav a longer break. woohoo!! gotta go for claz now. ciaoz..

college life..

year 2009 is my 14th year of studying.. two years kindergarten, six years of primary, 5 years of secondary and now, dis year, i started college!! i dun really know how i feel at the moment, dunno whether i shud feel happy or shud i be sad cuz im getting older!!!

taking physics, chemistry and double maths, i'm not sure whether im able to cope or not. but no matter wat, i am goin to work hard to get thru a levels.. im not goin to be a failure!!! for the first week of college, i haven really started any lectures so dun really know how tough a levels gonna be. HOPEFULLY, i'll still be able to enjoy life n my face wont be full of pimples due to high stress level..

due to the combination of subjects i chose, my claz has onli about 15 ppl... onli one third are gals. so sad.. but out of the 5 gals, one of it is me n my claz representative is my close fren, zhini.. din expect to be same claz with her.. it's quite a gud news for me cuz now we can car pool, transportation problem solved!! finally!!

made some new frens from my claz, they're quite friendly.. glad to have those frens n hoping later part we will be able to conduct group studying.. i nid help in my studies!!! who can help me??? college life was actually better than wat i expected juz dat those classrooms are so damn cold that i was shivering the first few days cuz i din bring my jacket..i pray that i'll be enjoying my college life n still can hang out here n there, keep in touch with my old schoolmates.. n zhini, if u r joining the dance club, i wanna see u dance!! muahhahahha.. that's all for dis post.. ciao!

MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!

stepping into college life, i realised how lucky i was for the past 11 years.. with the generosity of the government, i was able to enjoy free education.. now, with me entering a private college, i have to pay for education n dis is definitely gonna be a burden to my parents..

im aware that health comes before wealth but money issues can really drive me crazy.. studying a one n a half year a levels course itself is costing me rm25k.. i cant believe it!!! how on earth am i goin overseas to pursue further studies?? it's definitely goin to cost a bomb!!:(

i've been thinkin bout this since i went for my college orientation on the 2nd of january.. hoping that money will fall from the sky or some1 will award me with a scholarship.. i really hope that i will have a chance to go overseas.. pray hard my wish will be granted.

im really confused bout my future. i wanna study actuarial science but the fees is quite expensive frm wat i heard.. hohoho.. santa claus where are u?? can u put sum money in my socks during christmas? juz so confused now!!

NEW!!!

time waits for no man. everythin we do, whether benificial or harmful, time will still flow.. the things that i have done for the pass 17 years remain in history the world enters year 2009.. despite global recession, political issues around the world, there's still something for me to be proud of, my first personal blog ever!! to all readers, welcome to my blog!!

i would like to wish every1 reading dis blog a happy new year.. got the inspiration to open dis blog from my frens.. all of them started opening blogs n i decided that i shud have 1 too.. first time creating a blog, i seriously dunno how to even decorate or make my blog "alive".. hope that i'll be able to learn more bout it as time passes by...

there's so many changes im gonna face dis year. i juz finished my secondary skul life.. awwhh.. i actually missed it quite badly.. but i will think positively.. everythin new!!! the NEW list of mine:
1. new year, like duh
2. new blog, yeah!
3. new school, currently at HELP persuing a levels
4. no more wearing of school uniform
5. no more hectic band life, one of the reason i have time to open a blog:)
6. im paying to study now, it's really expensive, really pity my parents

n the list goes on..

hmm... i hope i will get use to all these NEW stuff.. my aim is to overcome all challenges persistently n i wont give up in anythin i do!! gotta go to bed now..