coming to an end...

in another 2 and a half weeks time, my first semester is gonna end.. when i first started this semester, i thought that the semester would not end forever but time flies. the semester is going to finish veryvery soon.. happy that im gonna hav holidays soon.. YAY!!!

but one thing is bothering me. i dun think i'll get good results for dis sem. in fact, i dun think i can even reach the target set.. the chances of me getting the target is like 0.00000000000001.. but oh well, there's nothing that can be done. the only thing i can do is work hard next sem. i really hope i will.. dun wanna play play anymore lol..

dunno wat to blog edi.. haha.. juz wanted to update it. so i think i'll stop here.. nid to write a journal of 8 pages=(

my view of life..

i realize, the ultimate purpose in life is not just about good results.
instead, good personality and being a blessing to other people should be my goal.
it's pointless having good results but a rotten attitude.

also,
i realize, people's opinion towards me is not as important as my own opinion towards myself
i want to start living a life that pleases myself
not a life that merely pleases people around me.

i realize, human beings can never be perfect and everybody makes mistakes in life
i shall not let my mistakes control me but i shall be a master of my mistakes
admit my mistakes and delete them from my memory
and never repeat them anymore.

i realize, there's so many things more worthy than material possession
i can have the best car, the best house, the most expensive things in the world
but still feel neither satisfied nor happy
as these are just temporary possessions in my life.

thus, my conclusion is, i am working on my life now.
i want to be a person with better virtues,
reduce the amount of mistakes i commit each day,
be a blessing to other people,
and gain happiness through this whole process.

revival of my blog

i did not realize that i have actually abandoned my blog for so so so long.. i do visit this blog but i feel that i have lost interest in blogging. maybe i should start blogging again so my friends will remember i still exist. lol..

i am already halfway through the 1st semester in intec.. social life considered quite good, but academic life, i don't think i am doing ok. perhaps english subjects are just not my cup of tea. having been speaking mandarin to most of my friends in high school, i find it pretty hard to speak english to friends. somehow i feel weird speaking so much english but i am starting to get use to it. sadly, my mandarin is going to sound weird as i seldom speak that language anymore.

i am glad to have such fun going housemates but the disadvantage is, we always talk too much until we forget to study. this really reminds me of those times when i used to talk with my beloved friends(you know who you are). i must learn how to be hardworking. i really envy people who can study. compare to them, i am like a lazy pig.

i realized i have undergo transformation in my life since i started college life here. due to the attitude, attendance and participation marks, i realize that i am paying more attention in class. even if i want to sleep, i will try my best not to because i know that i will lose a lot of marks if i do so. lectures here are really different from high school but the lifestyle is pretty much the same. we have fix venue for classes, fix recess, and of course, fix timetable. i prefer help's timetable. i like being a nomad, changing classrooms after every class and having breaks at random times.

that's basically what i am experiencing in my life now=)

note: i miss my batch's band buddies!!! can't wait to meet them. i hope more people will attend the gathering on the 18/9. i miss all of you very much. i am looking forward towards it.

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one week of holidays just passed by without me noticing.. did nothing much this week actually.. relaxed, played trumpet(but still cant play well), watched beethoven virus(an outdated drama), hang out with my friends(it's fun to hang out with you guys) and slept like a pig.

looking forward for paintball, trip to singapore=) but i don't want to go for medical checkup.. HELP!!!

startin soon...

im gonna start practicing trumpet dis hols.. for dis few months, ive not been practicing much and as a result, i cant play anythin now:(

it's very frustrating when u cant play sumting u feel like playing agghhh..

i muz practice practice practice practice!!!!!!!

i've made up my mind...

i've sort of made up my mind.. after my a levels external exam, im gonna stop a levels and start with a new course, American Degree Foundation Programme(ADFP).. although i spent 6 months at HELP and im juz goin to leave juz like dat, i wouldn't say it is a waste of time.. it's more of an experience for me..

juz an update bout myself..

will be havin a 3 weeks break after dis week n i'll be starting the new course at INTEC UiTM shah alam.. lucky thing, shah alam is not very far from my hse.. unlucky thing, i hav to stay at the hostel although my hse isn't dat far..

the sad thing is, im gonna leave my HELP classmates.. although i've juz known u guys for 5 months, i enjoyed being with u guys.. hope we'll still keep in touch n hang out together in the future.. haha.. i'll miss all those lame jokes n the funny moments hahaha..

5th of june, the laz day im gonna see my classmates at college.. it's juz 2 days away from now...

hmm...

chem test today.. din study much so i dont really expect much.. just hope it's still an a.. i din even check whether i did all the pages.. i got a feeling i left out some questions which i din notice..

is dis true??

intec?? american degree foundation programme??? is this true?? i really dunno.. offer letter where r u ?? im waitin anxiously for u=(

anyway, i shall focuz on my a levels externals first n decide wat to do later on..

NO!!!

when i know dat i did badly for physics, i told myself, i muz do well for mechanics.. my test results for mechanics is quite consistent, so i thought as long as i keep calm, i shud be able to do it.. but NO, i didnt do well at all..

one whole ques gone.. i din even know wat is the freakin question talking bout.. n now im starting to question myself.. why, why did i screw dis paper out of all my other tests??? why???? ppl are improving, n here i am, doing worse than my mocks.. i feel so helpless.. i definitely studied more for dis exam compared to my mocks which i studied for dunno how many minutes only..

im really fed up edi.. if dis is my luck, i juz hav to learn how to accept it... mayb dis is a test for me, to teach me how to face failures in life.. i know 1 of my major weakness is, i do not know how to accept failures..

the first time is alwayz the hardest.. but after dat, it will bcum easier n easier n in the end, as easy as ABC.. hopefully 1 day, i'll learn how to accept failure easily and try again without giving up!!!

wat's next??

for dis few days i've been wondering, will i be completing HELP a levels?? or will i be leaving it for another pre u course?? i really dunno the answer to dis ques..

IF i leave HELP, i feel that i've wasted so much time of my life.. 5 months of studies.. am i juz goin to leave like dat?? is it a wise decision?? on the other hand, if im leaving for a gud reason, why not.. afterall, 5 months is considered nothing compared to my future rite??

i guess i shall not think too much about dis matter... as everythin is still uncertain, im juz gonna pray for the best:)

nice day:)

went to shuraku for japanese dinner laz saturday with my fellow band mates n had so much fun.. had a chance to meet up with two of my ns frens, kah lee n feline.. as usual, we chit chat n listen to diff ppl tellin diff stories..

although all of us are in different coll, everytime we get together, i dun feel the gap between us.. the bond between us is so strong n i dun think it's gonna break anytime soon.. really love the time we hang out together...

and, as a japanese food lover, i really enjoyed the food very much.. thanks to mr. ng shea shin for introducing us to dis place.. will go back there again if i hav a chance hehe..

cant wait to meet up with u guys again.. hopefully in the next gathering, every1 will be able to make it:)

:)

after 4 days, finally my mock exam is over!! nid to catch up with some sleep and then by next week, i gotta turn on study mode again as my external exam is juz round the corner.. cant wait for hols...

finally...

after passing my drivin test for more than a month, FINALLY, i had a chance to drive the car.. yesterday was my 2nd time drivin after passin my test..

lookin at my own performance, i dont think ill be able to drive alone anytime soon.. mayb after 1 year or so... i dun even know how to turn properly.. i think if i dun b careful, one day my car gonna turn turtle haha..

but the funniest part is, my brother, upon seeing my drivin, asked me to go n play with toy cars to get an idea of how to drive.. my mother, on the other hand, suggested to me that i shud try playin those computer racing car games..

if playin these stuff actually can determine ur drivin skill, then i think i know why i drive so horribly.. laz time when i played the racing car games in arcade, i used to bang the divider super alot of times.. hahaha..

although their suggestions may sound funny, im gonna try it out if i have the time.. who knows, it may work n i can learn how to drive after 1 month..

what will you do??

if the whole claz understands something except u, what will u do?? will u ask ur lecturer or will u choose to keep ur mouth shut and dont ask a single question??

laz time when i was in high skul, i'll choose to keep my mouth shut n not ask a single question.. but now, im payin for my tuition fees which is so expensive, i feel that im wastin money if i dun ask when i dun understand..

but, it's not easy for me to ask a ques.. like today during physics claz, i din understand wat was being taught n i asked the lecturer.. the whole claz understood it except ME.. at that moment i feel so dumb.. in the end, not onli i still did not understand, i wasted other 13 ppl's time.. all waiting for me to understand..:(

i feel so dumb.. the situation would have been better if i juz acted that i understand and learn it by myself when i get home..

wat will u do if u were in my position?? do leave some comments.. i nid advice!!

physics is a subject which im very interested in.. now that i dun understand so many things, i feel so depressed.. the onli way to solve dis prob is to find a way to understand those stuff that i dunno.. i hope to get a better understandin of physics.. pray hard..

every1 hav their limit..

some ppl may be very nice, they treat us very gud n they seldom get angry.. but i guess everyone have their limit to everythin..

from the first day of coll till today, it's the first time seein my stats lecturer losing his temper. i guess he wasnt very satisfied with our mock exam results. he was so diff today..

i feel bad to make him so angry.. when i asked him a ques today, he almost scolded me.. if i was a boy, i think he would have scolded me hehe.. but the fact is, im a GIRL.. so i escaped scoldin.. hehe..

hope dat i'll get 70 marks for my mock.. so that i can get an A forecast.. pray hard..

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hmm.. haven been updating for so so so long.. not bcuz im busy, juz bcuz im lazy.. okie start with the good new first.. im free from moral n malaysian studies already unless i fail!!!! but i think ill pass hehe.. after four months of 4-7 classes, i can finally end claz early..

secondly, onli one more month b4 exam... how how how?? no choice.. but study study study!!! rite?? i cant be lazy anymore!!

im not gonna on9 so often anymore.. muz start studyin edi.. so i shall update my blog lesser.. gud bye bloggie for the time being.. sayonara!!

updates!!

whoa i realised that i haven been using the comp for practically the whole week.. almost not at home the whole time from wednesday to saturday.. everyday also leave hse at 7 sumting, come home at 11 -12 sth at nite.. so basically i din on9 cuz i was too tired to do so.. hehe..

wed n thurs, i had to go to BGC for rehearsal for easter play, fri farewell dinner for hua yin, n sat was the easter celebration day.. n today, i went for the orange run organised by BHPetrol n i freaking ran 11km.. siao!! almost died..

actually i think it was quite an enjoyable week but now im starting to get nervous cuz my mock exams is gonna start next week n i haven had time to study.. owhh so scary.. n this week i will have to help out with the debate comp organised by help as im a sasarian!!!! how to study??? get bad results n a bad forcast meh?? ahhhhh.. i really hope i have the ability to do few things at 1 time..

okie.. i think dat's all for now.. will update asap!! again, i may not have time next week as it is goin to be a busy week for me!!!

bad impression!!

RAPID KL BUSES, I HAVE A VERY BAD IMPRESSION TOWARDS YOU!!!

knowing that 5pm is already peak hour, shouldn't the buses start moving non-stop?? i waited for freaking 20 minutes for the bus driver to appear and when he got on the bus, he played with his hp for a few minutes before letting us in.. what is this?? not professional at all.. how can we rely on public transport???

rapid kl buses, i really dislike u now!!

jpa interview

owh.. i waited from 2 to 530 before i was called in for interview.. it was a super long wait.. but the gud thing is, after waitin for so long, i did not feel so nervous..

im quite sad that my interview din go really smoothly, they asked me some weird questions that i din even know the answer. nevertheless, i managed to crap some stupid stuff haha..

at the end of the interview, the main interviewer told us not to be sad if we din get the scholarship.. when he was saying dat sentence, he kept lookin at me.. so i guess, i wont get dat scholarship.. n im quite sure dat the other applicants did much better than me so i shall really say sayonara to jpa n concentrate on my a levels now!! whee..

interview here i come..

in another few hours time, i'll be attending an jpa interview... im feeling nervous now so i decided to blog hehe.. hope that ill be able to stay calm during the interview later...

my current aim is to learn how not to be nervous in an interview.. i dun mind not getting it but i would be upset if i feel nervous later.. so bloggie, do pray and wish me luck hahaha..

assignments and tests ahead!!

gonna be a busy weekend. later i still gotta go for moral studies replacement class!! stupid claz that i attend for the sake of getting my attendance to avoid bein barred from the exam.

i have a 10 page assignment which i have to submit dis monday. i started with it but not even half done yet!! the titile is quite confusing so i spent quite alot time thinking wat shud it be but i decided to juz crap. hehe..

next week, im gonna have my core maths 1 mock exam n probably mechanics test, which most probably both tests will also be on monday. oh gosh, i got really little time to do so little things! can i buy time?? some1 pls invent a machine for me so that i can purchase time hahahaha..

nyway, gotta prepare to go coll already.. will update again some other time. probably soon probably another week b4 my next update.. bye bloggie!!

avoided...

i avoided failure but failed to be a corruption free person.. shud i be happy or sad?? im not too sure!!!

the first failure of my life!!!

hmm.. come to think of it, i didnt even officially fail anythin in my life b4.. i do screw things up, but i din really fail sumting b4.. the first failure in my life awaits me, my drivin!!

i was supposed to take the test next week but today they called me n told me that im gonna take it tomorrow... im not even ready!! i dun even know how to drive a car properly.. why did they treat me like dat?? im really not satisfied with dis.:(

screwing up dis part is not enuf.. i failed to remain as an anti-corrupted person.. lose my integrity n i feel really really bad now.. haizz.. wat shud i do?? i din even think of doing dis b4.. oh gosh.. i feel so screwed up..

anyway, im not gonna think too much bout it already.. i shud look positively.. failure, so what?? ng li yen!!! failure is the key to success right?? learn how to accept it!!! failure is nothing!!!

actually failing is not a big deal, is the amount of money dat im spending for drivin that is bothering me.. i used about 1k juz to learn how to drive but im still so noob at it.. wat happened to me?? why am i so hopeless??

guess im too nervous to think bout anythin at the moment.. i think im juz goin to go to bed n not think too much!! welcome failure!!!

finally

after a long wait of 3 months, spm results was finally released!! happy with my results?? im of cuz super happy. totally din expect dis results, especially for my chinese. i nvr even dreamt of gettin an a for my chinese before. was it pure luck? i dun know the answer to dis question. accordin to the star, about 5% of the candidates scored an a1 for chi in spm 2008 compared to 1.4% the previous year..

juz realised i haven officially announced my results in my blog.. i got 11A1s for my spm!! whee.. shocking news?? i guess it is.

hopin to get a scholarship so that i can ease my parents' financial burden. but im weak in interview. who has interview skills pls share them with me!! haha.. thanks..

:(

why cant u juz take my attendance?? i din hear u calling my name.. isit dat hard to take an attendance?? i sat in the claz for the whole 3 hours u know!! but im not angry, i juz dislike the way u handle stuff..

replacement classes for 4 consecutive saturdays... if not bcuz i dun wanna be barred from exam, i wun even bother to go.. wasting my weekends.. i got no more saturday mornings for a month.. oh no!!1

back

after 4 days 3 nites in macau n zhuhai, im finally back in malaysia again. i really had fun during this trip and wouldnt mind stayin longer. the weather wasnt too cold or too hot, juz nice for me..

hmm.. in another 8 months, im gonna turn 18(legal age for one to enter a casino). do i really dun look like my age? i really look dat immature?? cuz whenever i enter a casino, the security guard at the entrance will look at me with a weird expression, some even ask me to show my id to prove im 18. since i couldnt show, i was refused entry.. so sad.. but i still manage to go into few of them. din really gamble cuz i dun know how to play those games n i dun hav the money to do so..

din have much time to do shopping so i din buy much.. juz bought few shirts, few bags.. was quite an enjoyable trip but now i hav to go back to coll.. so sad..

macau here i come!!

hmm.. gonna miss college for two days.. but im not sad cuz im goin to have fun. college life is really tiring n finally im gonna take a break.. will be goin macau tomorrow.. im really looking forward to it.. hope i will have fun!!

msian studies assessment test...

had my msian studies test today.. it was neither easy nor hard.. i think it's moderate.. the total marks is 20.. hmm.. i think n hope i can get at least 10 marks.. may my wish cum true..

uni application

only today, i was told that my mentor is my chem teacher.. oh and she was telling us bout uni application stuff today.. as i have already know, we nid to prepare personal statements, testimonials from lecturers n also gud grades for forecast.

the thing that strike me the most is the word INTERVIEW.. she was sayin that the interview is the time that we r gonna show our true colours. then she talked about introvert, extrovert.. hav to learn how to speak out in claz n stuff..

i wonder, am i an introvert or extrovert person?? i myself really dunno.. sum1 pls tell me the answer..haha..

busy life ahead..

went for a sasa meeting today. i got to know that as a sasa scholar, im supposed to do internship for 148 hours.. 148 hours is equivalent to 6 days and 4 hours.. oh no!! im gonna be super super busy!!

why do partial scholarship holders nid to serve the same amount of hours as those full scholarship holders?? i think it's really unfair.. they shud determine the amount of hours based on the amount of money we're getting, like wat the merit scholarship does. i get half the amount of money, but do the same amount of work as those ppl..

thinking from a more positive prospect, im gonna gain lots of experience from the internship. juz hope dat it wont be boring. :)

i love malaysia???

hmm.. i wonder do i love the country so much.. even studyin a levels, im still takin malaysian studies. still hav to sit for msian studies test n do assignments for dis subject. actually im not sure why am i takin dis subject. it's juz a waste of time.

mayb i really looooovvvveeeee the country so much?? haha.. wat say u? i personally dun know the answer to dis ques xD.

walking..

claz ended n i was feeling exhausted.. called my brother to see whether he would be able to pick me up from the taman jaya lrt station. he said he haz to go college already. too bad, i had to find my own way home from lrt.

after takin rapid kl t634 bus to bangsar lrt n lrt to taman jaya station, i din know how to get home. wait for a bus?? i guess it would take me a long time.. so, i decided to take the no.11 bus(it means walk with my both legs). as the roads were quite busy plus my slow speed, it took me 25 mins before i reached home.

thinkin back, i feel my life has changed so much. when i was studyin in chs, i was chauffeured to every destination i wanted. now, not onli i have to take bus n lrt, i hav to even walk home.

note: im not grumbling. hehe.. juz bloggin bout how much my life has changed in juz a few months.:)

lectures...

had physics stats n chem lecture today.. dunno wat's happening to me, juz couldn't get wat is taught today.. making mistakes here n there, getting wrong answers several times.. help me!! hoping my brain will be functioning well tomorrow.. i hate the condition of my brain now.. ughh..

actually, im quite worried about my studies. starting to feel that i cant cope, especially in chem n physics. i really dun understand the concepts taught today. sum1 pls explain to me!! asking my lecturers is totally a no no to me. they'll sure feel why am i so stupid but still wanna take this course.

since i've decided to take dis course, im goin to survive thru dis one n a half year. if i've to work much harder than others, ill be willing to do so.. go go go li yen!!! u can do it!!

friendship

spending 5 years together, going thru tough times together, we were like a big family.. graduating from high school, everybody has their own life, new frens. our bond isn't dat strong anymore. when will be our next gathering where every1 will show up?? hope it'll be soon. hope that every1 haven't forgotten u actually hav dis bunch of frens b4=)

panic!!!

i think dis is my first time in my life i really got panic and forgotten everything.. went for my 2nd driving lesson today.. after teaching me how to do the parking, my driving instructor say he would go down from the car to see whether i was doin ok. dat time i din feel anythin.

the first time doing the parking with him observing from outside the car, i managed to do wat he wanted. then i continued doing it the 2nd time.. n u know wat i realised??? my drivin instructor wasn't even there to look at wat i was doing!!! he juz went off like dat.. my 2nd time drivin a car n nobody looking at me??

I started to panic. forgotten all the formula that he thought me, couldn't get into the parking lot properly. i really felt like giving up at that instance but i didnt.. i din even bother to follow the formula anymore, i used my own method to do the parking.. spent about 5 mins juz to get my car parked.. can u imagine it? so, to all reading my blog, nvr panic when u drive ur car!! relax.. but i guess none of u will panic while u r drivin.. im the weird 1:)

after the parking, i totally forgotten how to go up the slope n my car slide backwards.. dis is really the 1st time in my life my mind juz went blank.. it was juz so dangerous.. everything went wrong as i could not even think..

after that when i cooled down, everythin suddenly turn out to be ok.. the lesson i learnt today, nvr nvr ever panic!!! :)

SPM results

it's been two months after spm. busy with college life, i had practically forgotten about my pending spm results until this few days when people start to mention about it.

when i went to my aunty's house for a party, one of my relatives told me she received an sms stating that spm results will be out on the 23rd of february. i was thinking, nah, it's impossible, some of the candidates are still havin their national service. today, some1 said it will be out on the 12th of march. so i guess all these dates are juz rumours, nothing have been confirmed yet.

no matter when is the results coming out, it will still be the same. frankly speaking, im afraid of having to collect my result slip. i think i answered better during trials compared to spm. although spm results is not gonna affect my studies in any way, i still hope to get reasonable results to avoid makin my parents disappointed.

i know i din really work hard for spm and i guess there's a price to pay for my laziness. i may not get results as good as all my friends but i hope my results wont be too bad. hope im lucky enough to get 8 a1 so that i can get a scholarship for my a levels course. i know it's hard so im juz hoping :)

CNY with s6ians

missing claz party on the 3rd of november, claz trip on the 15-18 of december, i lost so much fun.. not that i din wan to go, juz dat i already hav other plans. finally, on the 31st of jan, i managed to meet up with my clazmates.. it was really fun meeting up with u guys!! cant wait for the next gathering..

after going to shwen nee's hse for her party, i followed sam to shea shin's hse to meet with my s6isans to go to shue ze's hse.. shea shin's house add is no.101, jalan athinahapan but we went to jalan athinahapan 1.. sam even asked the person there isit shea shin's hse then we knew it was the wrong hse.. after making some turnings, not very long, we reached shea shin's hse.. ppl already settled down so we actually felt quite lost there, din know who to talk to...

waited for those gamblers to finish their game before heading to shue ze's hse. until that moment, i haven gamble since the beginning of cny. after they were ready to leave, i sat kheng aik's car to shue ze's hse. he was quite nervous when he was at the parking lot n he was cursing n it was quite funny haha.. after some time, he managed to park the car.

went to shue ze's condo, n started watching tv... hmm.. it was actually my first time staying over in ppl's hse other than my bandmatez' hse.. kee siang came.. some of us went to shue ze's room.. ks started gambling with xiau yen and i watched them gamble.. i felt it was quite funny to see only two ppl playing blackjack. one gal, one boy gambling.. i couldn't resist the temptation n ended up joinin them gambling. i din even get blackjack once.. but nevertheless, gambling with my clazmates was really fun!! i won a miserable amount of rm 2 haha.. but it's still considered as a winning game rite??:)

ate maggi mee with xiau yen n i-ting. had some entertainment presented by ali aka brian loh who willingly become our waiter.. he even served us with napkins.. he was juz cracking jokes all the way till xiau yen tak boleh berhenti ketawa.. and then, the best part of the whole sleepover, our talk..

fiona, i-ting, shue ze n yong sheng actually squeezed on shue ze's queen size bed, me, xiau yen, nyit yang, brian loh on matresses.. missing those claz party n claz trip, i did actually missed out alot of 5s6 latest news.. i din even know shue ze was havin relationship with who!!! they din know i was so outdated so they were actually quite shocked when i din know haha.. sorry la frens, i'll keep myself more updated next time hahaha..thanks for answering my funny questions!!! talked talked talked n i really loved the talk cuz i got to know so many gossips of my fellow frens.. i luv to be updated!! one by one fell asleep and in the end, onli me, shue ze yong sheng n brian loh was awake.. since it was already 6, we decided to go to sleep..

when i woke up at 11 the next moring, most of them were still asleep.. saw ji hao n kee siang playin ps2 there.. after most of us were awake, we gamble once again.. xiau yen memang gambler la, she earn dunno how much le!! damn alot of money.. i started to get addicted to gambling then, oh no!!

bout 1230, we went for lunch.. went to eat lou she fun at taman tun.. was quite ok la the food but not really reasonably priced.. after lunch, some of us went home while some of them went to nyit yang's hse..

TO ALL S6ians WHO R READIN MY BLOG, IT'S REALLY FUN HANGING OUT WITH U GUYS. HOPE TO MEET UP AGAIN ASAP!!! U GUYS ARE REALLY GREAT FRENS!! LOVE U GUYS FOREVER!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL..

cny with frens!!!

i mostly celebrate chinese new year only with my family every year.. laz year i went to shwen nee's hse and dis year i did the same thing!! mayb i'm gonna do this for the following years until i get marry xD..

on the 31st of jan, kah lee's sis fetched me n sam n herself to sn's hse. sam, kah lee n sis came to my hse for a short visiting.. as my mum wasn't at home, i had to distribute ang pow to them(felt like an adult when i gave them those red packets). they were actually the 3rd group of ppl who visited my hse. haven been havin many visitors comin over for a long time.

although we din know the way, we did not really lose our way for long. did lose our way for less than 5 mins, felt so pro.. went to sn hse, she still sleeping like a pig!!! so we waited for her to dress up..

later on, kok hoe n wei chong came.. we carried out kah lee's favourite activity, sing k. haha.. wonder how many times did she visit red box during the hols.. although i dun like singing but singing with my buddies turn out to be quite fun.

time passed by so faz and it was evening. we went to shower n dress up.. guess most of u wont believe it.. i wore skirt for the 1st time!!!(other than the concert skirt that im forced to wear laz time).. cool rite?? i promised sn to wear n i din put aeroplane, dis really shows how loyal i am to my frens.. hehe.. party time juz eat eat chat chat chat.. i managed to meet up with sherlyn, xiao hui, shwen nee, sam, kah lee, kok hoe n wei chong.. n at about 10, left her hse n i went to another party.. muahahahaha.. will talk bout the party in my next post...

losing isn't nice!!

losing a fren,
isn't something pleasant.
nobody can avoid being sad.
u may not shed a single tear,
but deep in ur heart,
u will feel the pain.
it's juz human being's nature..

losing a fren,
particularly a person with good personalities,
is indeed a great loss.
u may not be able to accept the fact,
but wat has happened cannot be changed.
history remains history.

losing a fren,
who is so kind,
who is so helpful,
who is so cheerful,
who is so encouraging.
who is so talented in dancing,
who is so active in everything,
is definitely a very sad thing.

my personal experience hav left a big impact on me. i realised, we shud appreciate all our frens and family when they're stil available. anything can happen anytime. life is unpredictable no matter how great how smart a person is. merciless sickness can attack anyone any day no matter how hard u try to live a healthy life.

to my dear fren, from today onwards, we'll be living in two different world. may u rest in peace and be happy in the new world u're in. u will always be in our hearts.. ur deeds will nvr be forgotten..

shock!!

.......... i stunned when i received the sms. i din know how to react, i could nt believe wat i read although i knew it was the truth. even double checked with the person who sent me the sms whether im reading the right thing or not. nothing can change the pass.

a cheerful, helpful, skillful person had such an unexpected ending of life. although we weren't very close, from the conversations we had, i hav always admired the way u encouraged ppl bside u, ur confidence towards life. i am truly saddened by this whole thing. ur absence is a great loss to every1. but again i would say, nothing can change the pass.

i'll try to be strong while facing this piece of news and may u rest in peace..

friday..

today is a friday juz like other fridays.. woke up 6 in the morning to prepare for college.. 645, i left my hse n head towards taman jaya lrt.. taking public transport in the morning isnt wat i like to do.. sittin the lrt n bus all alone is juz so boring and i really hate squeezing with those strangers:(

but after today, i think takin the lrt to skul haz its benefits too hehe.. curious?? wanna guess why?? after takin the escalator up to the platform to wait for the lrt, i saw sum1 very familiar.. lookin twice, makin sure i hadn't see wrongly, i saw shirley.. hohoho... she is studyin at tarc n im studyin at help academy. it was such a coincidence!!! i feel so happy to meet my fellow classmates again. although im nt so close to all of u, i actually do miss all of u!!

i actually feel quite bad for missing those s6 events but i din do it on purpose.. i was juz too busy durin december.. meeting shirley at the lrt, reminds me of those high skul days.. chit chatting with frens in claz, sleepin n eating in claz is juz so fun..

now, in help, there's onli 13 ppl in my claz. 10 boys 3 gals.. we're getting along quite well but there's a big diff compare to high skul.. laz time, the amount of gals n boys are bout the same.. i miss gals in my claz now hahahaha.. and now, my claz is so small dat i dun even have chance to not pay attention or sleep.. sumtimes when im super tired, i cant juz sleep.. i had to tahan till those lecturers leave n it's very torturous.. even chit chattin durin claz is super hard..watever we chat about can be heard by our lecturers..

one thing gud is, lecturers are better than those high skul teachers.. if they suck, i think ill die haha.. but then, havin none of my ex classmates in my claz is makin me miss u guys so much!! not even a single person from chs is in my claz now so sad... im really lookin forward to meet up with u guys.. miss all of u badly.. evelyn n siew cen is now thousands of miles away from me.. hope dat 1 day we will still be able to meet up.. memories of high skul moments will nvr fade..

i managed to get one week off for cny hols hooray!! actually there's still 2 classes on next week but since those lecturers say that it's okie nt to go for claz, im not goin.. ponteng once in a while wont hurt i guess.. cny here i come.. so many things happened juz in one day....

cny holidays!!!

HELP a levels has onli 2 days off for cny.. i wonder why they onli giv us two days off.. we r in msia, most of us are chinese, why shud they deprive us from celebrating n havin fun durin chinese new year. i was so pissed n sad when i heard about this news. most of my frens are havin a 10 days break, i felt jealous for the first time xD.

few days later, shea shin who was also takin the same course told me his claz managed to get 1 week off for cny. when i heard bout it, i was so excited. can u believe it, gettin extra hols. immediately i asked him how they got 'awarded' with those hols.. after learning the secret skill, i suggested my clazmates to do so. u know the malay peribahasa "bagai aur dengan tebing"?? with their cooperation, i now hav 4 days of cny break, excluding the weekend b4 cny. hooray!!!

but im still unsatisfied.. guess why?? i hav a statistic 1 claz on friday. i dun mind goin for it but the prob is, it's onli an hour of claz. for me to go to college, it takes me an hour or so. means i nid to travel a total of two hours for dat freakin 1 hour claz. time is so precious n i dun wanna waste time argghhh.. why cant u juz postpone ur claz? it isn't dat hard rite?? haiz..

tomorrow i will be havin dis mr. XXX's claz. i really hope dat mrXXX will change his mind n giv me hols!!! may my wish be granted. looking forward for the long break.. long hours of college is tiring me..

dat's all im gonna blog about today.. ciaoz..

written by,
the girl who nids rest:)

everything!!

dis week is my 3rd week of college life. i settled with my subject combination without makin any changes.. really hope that i would not regret... sad to say, zhini n me are now in different claz as she decided to take up bio instead of further maths. we are seperated!! i hope we both will get used to it..

can anyone guess where am i now?? im in the computer lab of help academy!! one advantage in college compared to secondary is, i can actually use a comp at college.. isnt that great?? having a 2 hours break before my mechanics 1 claz begins.. mechanics 1 is one subject closely related to physics but is a unit in maths. hmm.. i feel it's kinda tough, nt like the physics we used to learn durin secondary.. juz praying hard that i will be able to catch up and wont feel so lost during mechanic 1 claz.

chinese new year is juz round the corner. looking forward for the cny holidays.. long hours in college is making me feel very exhausted. im a human, i nid sleep n rest!!! luckily i still hav free time to use the comp... life isn't always a bed of roses so im nt gonna complain bout my life.. i believe that no matter wat we do, we shud learn to enjoy it.. if not, we will suffer in life n grow old faster.. im gonna stay young foreever=>

hoping to have a gud rest n enjoyable cny break.. hope my lecturers are willing to take leave so that i can hav a longer break. woohoo!! gotta go for claz now. ciaoz..

college life..

year 2009 is my 14th year of studying.. two years kindergarten, six years of primary, 5 years of secondary and now, dis year, i started college!! i dun really know how i feel at the moment, dunno whether i shud feel happy or shud i be sad cuz im getting older!!!

taking physics, chemistry and double maths, i'm not sure whether im able to cope or not. but no matter wat, i am goin to work hard to get thru a levels.. im not goin to be a failure!!! for the first week of college, i haven really started any lectures so dun really know how tough a levels gonna be. HOPEFULLY, i'll still be able to enjoy life n my face wont be full of pimples due to high stress level..

due to the combination of subjects i chose, my claz has onli about 15 ppl... onli one third are gals. so sad.. but out of the 5 gals, one of it is me n my claz representative is my close fren, zhini.. din expect to be same claz with her.. it's quite a gud news for me cuz now we can car pool, transportation problem solved!! finally!!

made some new frens from my claz, they're quite friendly.. glad to have those frens n hoping later part we will be able to conduct group studying.. i nid help in my studies!!! who can help me??? college life was actually better than wat i expected juz dat those classrooms are so damn cold that i was shivering the first few days cuz i din bring my jacket..i pray that i'll be enjoying my college life n still can hang out here n there, keep in touch with my old schoolmates.. n zhini, if u r joining the dance club, i wanna see u dance!! muahhahahha.. that's all for dis post.. ciao!

MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!

stepping into college life, i realised how lucky i was for the past 11 years.. with the generosity of the government, i was able to enjoy free education.. now, with me entering a private college, i have to pay for education n dis is definitely gonna be a burden to my parents..

im aware that health comes before wealth but money issues can really drive me crazy.. studying a one n a half year a levels course itself is costing me rm25k.. i cant believe it!!! how on earth am i goin overseas to pursue further studies?? it's definitely goin to cost a bomb!!:(

i've been thinkin bout this since i went for my college orientation on the 2nd of january.. hoping that money will fall from the sky or some1 will award me with a scholarship.. i really hope that i will have a chance to go overseas.. pray hard my wish will be granted.

im really confused bout my future. i wanna study actuarial science but the fees is quite expensive frm wat i heard.. hohoho.. santa claus where are u?? can u put sum money in my socks during christmas? juz so confused now!!

NEW!!!

time waits for no man. everythin we do, whether benificial or harmful, time will still flow.. the things that i have done for the pass 17 years remain in history the world enters year 2009.. despite global recession, political issues around the world, there's still something for me to be proud of, my first personal blog ever!! to all readers, welcome to my blog!!

i would like to wish every1 reading dis blog a happy new year.. got the inspiration to open dis blog from my frens.. all of them started opening blogs n i decided that i shud have 1 too.. first time creating a blog, i seriously dunno how to even decorate or make my blog "alive".. hope that i'll be able to learn more bout it as time passes by...

there's so many changes im gonna face dis year. i juz finished my secondary skul life.. awwhh.. i actually missed it quite badly.. but i will think positively.. everythin new!!! the NEW list of mine:
1. new year, like duh
2. new blog, yeah!
3. new school, currently at HELP persuing a levels
4. no more wearing of school uniform
5. no more hectic band life, one of the reason i have time to open a blog:)
6. im paying to study now, it's really expensive, really pity my parents

n the list goes on..

hmm... i hope i will get use to all these NEW stuff.. my aim is to overcome all challenges persistently n i wont give up in anythin i do!! gotta go to bed now..